19 January 2017

January 2017

So many things happened. Happy things, unhappy things, I lift them unto Jesus. It has been a few days that I listened to worship songs and sermons upon sermons on youtube. Before I knew it, 6 hours have passed. It is so amazing. God is so good. I feel like running out at a big field, and shout it out loud that God is so good.

The Holy Spirit is so gentle and comforting. Once, I hid myself in the toilet and wailed buckets of tears uncontrollably.

Yes, I am in a shitty circumstance. But God is above all and He is in control. I feel much much better after crying and pouring out to Him.

This is the series of Chinese worship songs that I have been listening to. Alot of them makes me tear every morning when I am otw to work.  You can find them on youtube.


I will probably talk about my divorce after final judgement. Meanwhile, I am focusing on getting my own place this year and if God willing, to be able to study again.

Till then, take care.

Happy New Year 2017 :)

My hair in 2016

Jan 2017

18 October 2016

PPO Obtained and Granted by Court Against him

I just wanted to update that I have been drained lately. I am going to Court, appearing at mentions and also need to provide documentation regarding my PPO (Personal Protection Order) against my ex-hubby. There is family violence at home during this trying period and I needed to protect the children.

Each judge is different and many times, i feel it is based on luck if you meet a judge that is in your favour. I had one male (non chinese) judge who asked me "are you sure what you have written down here are all true?", as if doubting me. And I have also met a female judge who would say things like "don't worry, even non-physical violence, you can explain and tell your side of the story how he was emotionally and verbally violent".

Expedited Order

The actual PPO granted

I am also not hesitating to get PPO for myself if he hits me again. He hit me once last week and we got into a small tussle. I don't have a lawyer to represent me for the PPO cases. My lawyer is strictly only assisting in my divorce matters, hence it is so exhausting.

I just find all of these tiring and wasting of alot of time and energy amist the divorce proceedings. I also have to work full time and take care of the children and also my maid. Maids are frequently a vomit blood issue but we need their help too. Such a dilemma.

On my ezcema, I ate frog porridge previously and it took me close to a month to get better. The skin around my elbows were affected so I had to wear long sleeves now to cover.

Back to strict diet again.

14 September 2016

TSW - 14 months

I went on a buffet with my family and guess what? I ate 3 prawns and half a dozen of raw oysters. I was ok. Shocking right?

But on another occasion, I took a few pieces of homemade french fries and I flared up for a week. My front of the elbows, my legs and back of my knees are still red and itchy.

I have been eating my sulphur pills for the past one week but I am not sure whether it is helping.

Another factor could also be because I have been putting Lemongrass essential oil on my clothing (to ward off mosquitoes) and I guess I am sensitive to it. When the oil rubbed against my skin, it became very itchy and red.

There is also one time, my grandma cooked duck soup and I itched really bad that night. I scratched till I bleed and I didn't even realised that.

Generally, I am still doing fine. Currently going through my divorce and hopefully we can settle things amicably.

I am really quite tired almost everyday, settling the kids to bed, managing the maid and also doing all the groceries and toiletries and diaper shopping on my own if I am not doing OT at work.

14 July 2016

TSW - 1 year old

That's me and my parents, with my sis and her boy and my two girls in Batam. We had a great time of 4D3N stay. I think shopping there is wonderful. I spent quite a bit on baking items at Tunas Maju. I also did 1.5 hours of foot reflexology at SG$28. I will definitely like to go there again.

I am 1 year into my TSW and so far things are okay. Nothing that I cannot cope. Occasional outbreak are minor and within control. I guess this will be the end of my TSW update. I am concentrating more on my girls and also myself. I have plans to further study and upgrade myself too next year. Need to pray for financial stability and also squeeze time to be with my girls as much as I can.

Many people encouraged me to remarry and find someone else. Well, for now, I just want to concentrate on getting my own flat, study (perhaps) and spend time with my girls. The rest will have to wait. I am blessed that many people are concerned about me. I am really happy now, really. This is one of the best decision that I have made for myself. Since Dec until now, I have not shed a single tear about my decision. I am not looking back but enjoying everyday and every moment.

August is coming. I will be busy with my daughter's birthday party (everything will be handmade and homemade) and my mom's birthday in August too.

Till then, take care.